wrong person 对的人

Is it happy to hurt other?
Is it the real of friendship is just for fun?
since kids we had been told that we need friends...
besides parent, we depend on friends a lot...
i ever thought that i really found a real friend that i can let and share everything with them...
but, i am wrong...
that is impossible...
that just make me hurt only...
there is no true and wrong in this situation...
just wrong at i open my heart to wrong person...

对的人
值得依赖、值得依靠、值得信靠
除了侍奉、除了家人，我最信赖朋友
我曾经天真的以为
你们就是对的人
可惜心被伤害了
最后才狠心的相信

还记得上回在巴士上你问我的问题吗
你说是不是你刚刚在哭泣
我说只不过打瞌睡眼红罢了
其实
我的确哭了，而且还哭了一路
第一次7个小时的路途没睡而是在哭泣
是那么的凄凉、是那么的悲哀
那7个小时犹如7年之久
我对你的信赖，换来泪水和心碎
是否永远不把心打开就不会被伤害
你可否知道为何我会迟到吗
就因为对你的信任
一路上司机作弄我说妈妈为何那么轻易为我掉泪
其实她是不放心，更担心我为何会被骗
我宁可相信你不会骗我
但事实不由得我不信

还记得你说你要省钱
要我参一脚
错在我也是那么的信任你
最后再一次受伤
你对我犹如你那盆里的一朵花
你喜欢就来看看我、闻问我
你讨厌就把我拒绝千里之外
花也有感情，何况是人

你们吵架时，我拼命在做和事老
和好时别说一句谢谢
就连当一朵花也不值

我何苦呢
不过是自寻苦恼
不再相信
因为不可能有那个对的人
如果不打开心
是否可以不那么心碎

2 year anniversary

hello all my classmate...
today is our 2 year anniversary...
16.07.2007...
is a nice day to remember...
is the day all of us meet at IPR to start our journey as a trainee teacher...
2 years le...
we had go through happiness and sadness time together...
miss IPR a lot...
miss lecturers there...
miss environment there...
miss seniors and juniors there...
miss you all so much and thanks for your accompany for so long...
miss madam Lau and miss Ong too...
they are like our mother at IPR that teach us a lot and bring us up...
thanks a lot...
today, at different place, celebrate the same event - anniversary...
sure with different feeling...
still remember the song（angin hujan jalan sama）风雨同路？
that is our 1st song we sing together...
also been our theme song from that day till forever...
far from hometown, friends are very important for us...
especially those been with us for so long...
thanks all my friends...
thanks for all things that you all bring to me...
i will remember it forever...

orientation week...

once again became seniors to new ppismp comers...
really touch me...
the scenes make me recall back the time i report to IPR at 16 July 2007...
still remember that time my parent send me to IPR....
1st sight of IPR, i jz can say "wah, town in a jungle"...
at that time, i got complaint that why God send me to that place?
not mean that place is worse... IPR is a very beautiful place with flower around, beautiful math garden, nice swimming pool, 5 stars toilet and so on...
i just blame that why i can't like my sister can go far from hometown like go to peninsular Malaysia to continue study in institute?
at that time, i really blame a lot...
after leave there, come to a far place from hometown, i just realize that i had miss those really valuable things in my life...
i really miss IPR so much...
that is the place i start my journey as a trainee teacher...
there also the place i start involve a lot in dancing, singing became "panda"cause sleep late and so on...
really miss those time together with all seniors and juniors...
miss those culture at IPR...
all of us include all lectures, we can mix so well...
miss them so much...
also miss the orientation week...
miss how seniors make fool on us....
miss the senior that like to take photograph on me...
miss... miss... miss so much things...
after 1 and half years at IPR, we had been transfer to IPS....
i think i will very happy at new place and new situation....
but, i really have a hard time to to suit myself here at beginning...
now, everythings ok le...
the most things i like here is can serve Lord more...
i also like all brothers and sisters in Christ at Yi En Methodist Church....
sure include all brothers and sisters in Christ in TICF....
thank a lot... i really learn a lot... and experience a lot...
maybe that is what Lord want me to be... want me to serve Him more and love Him more...
ya, i will try my best, to love him more and involve in most activities to serve and praise Him more....
thanks my dear Father in the heaven...
thanks for all arrangement in my life....

a new start

really a hard time...
a last, i really let off le...
still remember each time i say want go cut hair, u will say a lot...
u say girl should have long hair...
ok, because of u i promise u that...
at last, i cut le...
after 5 weeks...
i start a new le....
new life, new image n new target...
this time, i reserve more time to God...
maybe that is what Lord want me to be...
singing, dancing, acting and so on...
really a big change compare to the pass...
sometime, i still hide in bed, drop down tears...
but, it will soon end...
God will help me and arrange the best for me...
i always believe that....

same...

same cloth...
same person...
same time...
but, different feeling...

same cloth, make me a bit shock, a bit sad, a bit emotional...
same person make me a bit tired, a bit regret, a bit scare...
same time, different places...
same place, different person...

same and different...
just a pass in my world...
from now and on...

i am who i am

i not good in saying out what are in my mind...
but, i would like you , you, and you to know what i how i going on from now to 1 day in the future...
so, whatever that is somethings on me, i will be share with you...
include what are in my mind, what i would like to say and what is my feeling now...